Nostress-a-boutit

I regularly find myself sitting down and realizing how tense my body is. As soon as I become conscious about it, the tension starts to fall away. There is still some deep internal stress about life in me, but on the "surface" I now feel more relaxed than ever before. My mind isn´t buzzing with problems and stress about my future nor my past. My perception of time has shifted.

People always say that living in the moment is the thing, but I have only been able to do than momentarily. It has been an exception to the rule, but now I find it the other way round. I find it very hard to focus and live not-in-the-moment these days. The moments and days seem longer, for there is more in each moment that I live in. Tomorrow seems so far away and irrelevant. The same goes for my past. In this moment my mind can relax, and even though living in the moment causes occasional hazards I´m happy with the way things are.

My life is still made of the same blocks as it used to, but now they have changed their places. Same glasses on but I look through from the other side.

I am not to be hunted down by those hundreds of trivial to do -tasks people try to keep pushing me about. The world is not crashing down even if I do things on my own pace.

When the things you stress about become irrelevant, stress itself becomes irrelevant. I trust in my life so I have no need to be in control of it. In a way, "I" have become irrelevant. I don´t mind.

I really don´t mind.

Instant kharma

Well, well, well - what do we have here? Isn´t it the very thing, you were asking for a couple of days ago?

That is the rhythm, the vibe of my life these days. Instant kharma, like a bitch, is giving me what I want. The things I´ve dreamt about (regardless whether they were reasonable or absurd) seem to simply pop into my life. I´m twirling on the dance floor with the products of my mind waltzing in and quite literally taking me for a dance! And when people around me make jokes about things, they get an instant payback for them.

Be careful what you want, for it is a tragedy to get what you want but not what you need.

What do I need? That is a very good question. In a way, I feel that I don´t really need anything. Just moving forward day by day, watching this life of mine that is turning into "the movie of a lifetime". Seriously, the storyline of my life is getting some epic grandeur in it these days. It would make such a fantastic movie. The absurdness and the kharmacy of it is astounding.

How could this be? How wonderful of an experience this life is with all its sorrows, confusion, love and all the emotions relating to getting and losing?

My reality could turn upside down any moment now. And the relationships in my life are something much more than just some people I´ve met. There is an irrational and absolutely crazy awesomeness at work here!

There is really nothing to do but to see how the show goes on. For omg, there has never been such drama (gasp!) in my life before.